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My Lovely Paradox

You are my paradox.
There are two mixed and complex sides.
Things that cannot be together, but there they are.
Everything the same and different.
Like fire hovering above ice.

I cannot be with you.
Because of you I am breaking,
even though you made me whole.
I’m stitched together,
but still coming undone.

Memories of you are confusing.
A little bit like knowing
and a bit of forgetting.
I know I’ve painted rainbows and happiness,
but there is nothing left but hurt.

I am stopping and letting you go
while catching up the dream to hold.
Loving you with all my hate.
Life’s bitter betrayal,
in letting me fall in love.

Far way in another land
I think that you are singing;
at my doorstep a friendly neighbor
that was once our song.
I cannot hear, but it caresses me softly.

Pieces that are scattered all about,
neatly lined up in careful rows.
Everything inside me spilling out.
So much tightly bound up and hidden away.

Standing at your coffin
and holding your hand.
No more embraces.
Hating that you are gone.

How am I supposed to remember?
When it hurts this much…
To recall is to know you are lost.

Now, always and forever,
I am yours.
If nothing else, know that.

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I am Myself I am a Wife Blessed with love I am a Mother Endowed with divinity Through the power of creation I am a Daughter Brought into this world With unending hope And the promise of the future I am a Sister Made fierce and strong While forged with kindness Protector and protected Spiraling together forever I am a Nurse Holding out the hands of healing And offering the sick comfort And the dying love Knowing that through this All things are healed and made whole I am a Writer Creating myself and world Sharing the inner depths of humanity Bringing together the divine And the humble mortal I tell the story of the Goddess And am remembered forever

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